I spent most of the day and last night sleeping. I didn't feel the urge to get up and my mom brought me coffee at 9am and I eventually woke up at noon and went back to bed in the afternoon. i had a heart to heart with my mom. I told her how i was feeling and I told her how i didn't feel like getting up, she said that she knew. i also told her how rejected i felt with my sexuality and my immediate family. sisters etc. I told her how i learnt to put on a mask and I really cant' be my authentic self around them. I don't know how else to be.